Why is it every -freaking- where I turn i’m constantly reminded about “sex”??
Doing it, having it, how fun it is, how horrible it is…
Dear internet, please stop over-sexualizing me and just let me be me. When I search tumblr for “flowers” or “cute” or even anything; let me search for what i’m actually searching for.
Seeing duttier-than-mud upskirts or two unknowns in incredibly awkward positions on a college computer isn’t a very good idea. So when i’m searching for the furthest thing from it..?!
gurrl please. </rant>
[should be uploading soon]
Hey! So i’m really sorry i’ve been off here for a couple of months for what seemed like for no reason. Just explaining things really. I know it’ll take a while to regain your trust but I hope you know I wouldn’t come off purposely (or at all) for no reason :)
I’m writing this post as I just feel really bad for just abandoning youtube.
I honestly didn’t mean to, anyone who’s been at college might feel the same, but it’s just so much pressure! I really underestimated the amount of hard work, time, and overall effort I had to put into my studies. and for that I apologise.
I’m also sorry for the amount of times ive tweeted ‘Uploading a video on monday’ or posted something similar on my facebook page; it’s because my [old] computer was really on it’s last legs; I was positive it could just survive for another hour for me to upload a rough-cut video just before the year was done. Again, i’m sorry.
Anyways, if you’ve watched me for so long, you’d know that I hate giving excuses, I just say the facts, I hope it doesn’t seem like I thought ‘sod it, i’m off.’ and ‘oh i miss it now, i’ll upload one more video then thats it’ because i’m not that sort of person. Things in my life were genuinely stopping me from being on youtube :/
You have to get the lighting right cos of my dark skin, then there’s actually recording the video, recording it right, then running to catch the library just before it closes, editing… especially since it was getting darker (i couldn’t record in the first place, the library was often shutting as i got home from college) it was getting very time consuming and I thought i’d spend it revising.
I know I could have gone on the college computers and wrote ‘sorry no vid this week’ but week after week would just get annoying I thought. Even though looking back i could have said ‘exams are soon so no vid’ or something.
I’ll follow up this post with a video, i think that’s best. I don’t mind starting all the way back at square one, but I just want to make sure that people sort of know the situation. I can try to record videos every 2 weeks at the least since the January exams are over, but I feel selfish and guilty for not being able to make promises at this time…
Ruben / BarbieOnStiltz xx
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